Galaunisme? Blame it to the song!

Sabtu yang lumayan sepi.

I went hiking with Megan and Lindsay though. Good thing.

But intinya bukan itu. That is only the introduction: my summary of the day. *gak ada hubungannn!*

So what I did today was picking songs and listening to it. Lagi super kangen sama the song "Jesus Beautiful Savior" and so as usual, I googled it. And yes I had a chance to hear it and I felt God. But again, kalo udah gitu gak pernah puas untuk google some more songs. However, since Ive promised Megan I'll go hiking with her, jadi di delay sampe abis dinner.

Malemnya jane kembali ngeyoutube. Ini jarang jane lakuin, for your information. Youtubing what? Songs! What songs? Nah ini dia deh.

Okay, before moving on, just to tell you briefly about myself, I don't usually listen to what I classify as "worldly" songs: non-Christian songs. I only listen to Christian songs ya karena I feel kalo listen to Christian songs itu bisa makin deket sama Tuhan. And lagipula, I have this thinking that listening to what-I-classify-as-worldly-songs makes God sad. Entah ini pemikiran yang terlalu ekstrim (probably), itu yang Jane hold for so long.

But today, well yeah. Iseng. Jane googled Indonesian popular songs which to be frank, I enjoyed. Jane nonton Afgan "Terimakasih Cinta", Tangga "Hebat", and terakhir Samson "Kenangan Terindah." 

As a result.....

GALAU.

Galauin apa bu? 

Jane lagi suka cowok? Enggak.

Jane keinget lagi cinta Jane yang gak kesampean itu? Oh please, this is stupid. No!

Jane pernah ditolak? Nembak aja belom.

Jane lagi mikirin nasib jomblo, jane? Haha, nggaklaya. 

Oh, Jane mungkin lagi homesick. Enggak juga tuh. 

Jane.. lagi lonely? Not quite. 

SO?

It was really nothing to do with my condition. These songs are inherently galau! So the galauness doth not depend on me, but the songs themselves! What I noticed was this: even though you have no reason to be galau, but if you listen to galau songs, then you'll be galau. Apalagi cewek yang pernah punya pengalaman persis gitu. Bedeh, makin menjadi jadi. Kalo udah gitu kan jadi rembong. Semuanya keliatan kelabu.. hikshiks

So my point is this: songs about failed love (or even successful love) CAN and IS GUARANTEED to affect us. God doesn't want us to be sad me lulu. Note that in I Thessalonians 5:16 God says "Be joyful ALWAYS."

Perhatikan. Ini perintah, bukan mau/nggak. Jadi, gak boleh galau at all?

Hmm, I'm not saying this. What I'm saying is, don't provoke/trigger the galauisme. Kalo lagi galau karena ada external force yang tidak terhindari like: death, break-ups, friendship disputes, family disputes, dll it is totally fine. What makes it sin is when you DWELL in the galaunisme. Kalo udah tau lagi sedih, ya jangan di "bumbuin" sama lagu2 galau dong.

Justru, kalo lagi galau, dengerin lagu rohani dong. Biar airmata yang tertahan--galau yang dipendem--itu bisa ditumpahkan pada source yang benar--Jesus Christ.

Anyway, I really don't know whether or not my standing of listening to ONLY Christians songs (with exemptions to neutral songs) is too extreme. Maybe yes, maybe no. However, after today's experience, I think I will stick with it. It prevents me of being galau. And even if Jane galau, I can find strength in the "Jesus" songs, not exaggerating the feeling by listening to galau songs. Perhaps mungkin "standard lagu" yang Jane pegang ini juga yang membuat someone tulis kesan tentang Jane di buku kenangan: 

"Jane, buat gw pribadi, adalah seorang figur wanita yang ALWAYS CERIA dan GIRANG, kayak GAK PERNAH KENA MASALAH gitu, or maybe she's so good to cover it."

Thinking through, yes, it's probably because Jane dengernya lagu Tuhan melulu, jadi keliatan always girang.

So, if now you're galau or not, DON'T LISTEN TO GALAU SONGS! Exemptions? You decide.

Lookout Mountain, October 29, 2011 (9.16 pm)